Magical thinking FAIL.
I am only beginning to process it....WE are only beginning to process it. We've got an emotional meltdown scheduled for sometime in the next hour or two...I'm drinking wine in preparation. Because wine always helps, right? Almost as much as magical thinking.
Anyway, thank god I live here now. Thank god we can see each other easily, that I can be there for him, without weeks of advance planning and an 11-hour drive. :/